You Just Love to make me Hurt Chapter 6

Chapter 6: Never enough...

These eyes have seen so much...and yet so little...

Kida jumped up and looked around the room, he was rubbing his eyes. Where was Izaya he wasn't in the room did he go somewhere? So many questions were running through Kida's mind. He forced himself out of the bed, and saw Shizuo sitting at the table. Why would he still be here, by now the boy would have thought he had left to go back to where he was supposed to be. Or he would be hunting down Izaya, maybe that was why he had left so suddenly. "Shizuo...." He looked at him and didn't even have to ask, Shizuo just nodded. He was clarifying that Izaya had left and who knew when he would be back.

When he left this, he either never got back, or just took forever to do so. It was something Kida hated, he sat down at the table, and thought to himself what was he supposed to do now, there had to be something he could do. "Where did he go....I have to find him..." Kida was freaking out he didn't want Izaya getting hurt because of him. But at the same time he was in no condition to go and hunt him down, if he did he would just end up putting himself into worst position. And possibly even getting Izaya into trouble, he might get hurt and that was the last thing that Kida wanted. He looked out the window, he couldn't Izaya the car was there, or well one of them was. So where did he go what was he doing. Did it have to do with Kida, there was so many things he wanted to ask.

But he doubted he would get any response to some of the things he asked, even if he really wanted to. There had to be a good reason for all of this. "He had to have a reason to leave...a good one..." He wanted to make sure of that, but there was really nothing he could do like this, he tried to call Izaya and it just kept going to his voice mail. Like he was either ignoring it or he didn't have his phone on him now. That couldn't mean something happened to him right, he was probably find, and just a bit busy with something. The boy sighed and fell back down the phone sitting on the table. This was getting way too much for him why did he let this happen. He was just a confused boy and that was all there was to it. "I love him right....that's why I stick around..." He didn't like knowing that he might be making a mistake by sticking around.

"Kid worrying about him won't help you...he's only going to die by my hands...." Shizuo smirked, and hit his fist on the table to leave a dent in it. He was the only one who would kill Izaya before that the boy couldn't die. He had made sure of that and was only defending Kida because of something like that. Not that he cared much of what happened to him. He was doing this because Izaya had said he would fight him after this was all over if he did this. "But...I don't care I have to go find him!" Kida shook his head, and looked to Shizuo. He knew this was not a good idea, even if he wanted to find Izaya. At the least he could have Shizuo walk with him, defending the one he cared about was enough to him.

"...Fine Fine just don't give me that look....you can look for a few hours but then we are coming right back here. "He huffed and walked to the door leaning against it waiting for Kida to be ready to go. He slipped on his jacket, putting his phone in his pocket he had to get there. Before it was too late if something did end up happening to Izaya. He hated being kept in the dark it was just not his style nor the way he liked things to go. Having thought he escaped from this life made being here hunting for Izaya even harder. Not that he would complain no he had to get to Izaya before someone else did.

"Let's go..." He tucked the knife away in his jacket, the gun was in his pocket. If he needed it at all, the boy knew how to defend himself and he would not let anything happen to him. He didn't know why he was walking around with Shizuo though. This did not seem to be such a good idea anymore, the question was would people understand such a thing. Kida had locked the door behind him slipping the key into his pocket. Izaya wouldn't be able to get into the house unless he had another key. Or went through the window, either way he hoped he would get home soon. This made him worried, very very worried and he didn't like it at all. 'Izaya where are you....'

~Izaya's unknown location~

He stood in the shadows watching and waiting, his target would be appearing. If he ended that foolish human life it would keep Kida out of the way so he didn't get hurt. Of course not that he was caring about him. 'Do you really care Izaya...' That girl's voice, the one of the black rider seemed to flow through his mind. He didn't know why but he kept thinking back to what she had said. He did care about him right, there was no reason to say he didn't. The figure flickered and he moved to hide again, it was here. That girl hunting down Kida, she had tricked him by giving him information about it. Well she had almost succeeded, he was smarter then she thought. Being a informant though he had to be. If he wasn't then well what was the point of all of that at this point.

He brought the blade against her skin, and watched the blood drip from the cut on her neck. It was not a deadly one yet but he could change that quickly. "You thought providing me fake information would save you...hah pathetic as always Namie..." He had dealt with her before, more like he had watched Mikado deal with her. She was not as strong as she seemed always having others do her dirty work. "Why are you here....I have done nothing to you." She had just tried to help him, but at the same time she had tricked him. There was orders to kill Kida the boy was getting into things he didn't need to know.

She would do whatever it took to keep him from that, the head of the Yellow Scarves would not get in her way this time. Even if he had said he gave up that life, it was still a part of him and would always be. "Oh yes you have~ lying to me doesn't work I'm smarter then you are..." He tossed her down and stood over her with the knife running his finger over it her blood was on his fingers. "You won't get anything from me..." She stood up and dug into her jacket for a gun. Izaya smirked and held up the gun throwing the empty gun at her. "looking for that~ yea you should pay attention a bit better..." He wanted to kill her but he'd just leave her be for now after a little beating.

'This is why you don't mess with my toys~ and that does mean Kida as well...' He kicked Namie watching her fly across the ground, he stood back awhile later looking at his work. She was alive he'd at least leave her with that. But he leaned down taking her bag. "I'll be taking this. and your computers have been wiped....go near Kida again and you will die..." With that he started to walk away it would take him awhile to get back to Kida. He would probably be back sometime late, hopefully the boy was asleep. And he could get Shizuo out of there as soon as possible.

"idiot...Izaya thinks he is so good..." She grabbed the gun, and loaded it shooting at his back. The boy seemed to fall to the ground but just pulled himself back up. "Ow that hurt...." He threw the knife watching it cut her hand before he walked over to pick it up and kick her again. "You can't kill me....you should know this by now..." With that he walked off, and moved to walk away again. She had hit him, but he just tossed the bullet down onto the ground and rubbed his arm. It didn't hurt all that bad, the bleeding would stop on it's own. Before he got back to Kida hopefully.

"There Kida....said I'd keep you safe..." With that he pulled his hood over his face and walked. The rain had started to fall, he had a long way home. But it wouldn't be that bad for him, he knew the path to take.

~Shizuo and Kida~

They stumbled back to the house covered in water, and he was exhausted. The two had picked up food before they went home and Kida had brought some for Izaya to eat. He was just tired and wanted to go rest now. He walked through the front door only to realize it was already unlocked as he sat down on the bed. "Izaya?" Looking around he felt arms wrap around him and a kiss on his neck. "told you not to leave...." Izaya wasn't being a brat, no he just wanted to keep his toy safe or at least Kida if that meant anything. "Well I wanted to go to the store...and then we were looking for you..." Kida didn't cry though his body wanted to. He had been so worried about Izaya and yet here he was like nothing had happened.

"As I said don't do that...but it should be over now..." His arm was bandaged where he had been hit, and Kida was looking right at it. He knew he would have to explain but did he care, not really it was just much better if he didn't think of such a thing like that. "What happened..." He felt a hand over his mouth and just gave a slight nod. Maybe it was better for him to not talk now, if it was ticking him off that much now he didn't want to do that anyway. "Shizuo stay here..." With that Izaya brought Kida into the room and placed him on the bed. He had a feeling tonight was going to be a busy night.

After all he owed Kida didn't he...all the stuff he had put him through, he kissed the boy and slipped his hand underneath his shirt. "Are you strong enough to play~" Izaya smirked and nibbled on the boy's lip waiting for a response from him. Kida didn't speak but he just looked at Izaya, the look in his eyes would speak enough. He didn't have to do so, and never had to it was just that easy or maybe that simple now. The boy shuddered and clung to Izaya, his body felt exhausted though all he remembered was falling asleep. Izaya was glad he was resting now, he had been running around more then he should have.

"You found her I'm guessing with how touchy you two are..." Shizuo was grossed out by the relationship between the two of them. And he wouldn't be staying here long, he had to get back to where he belonged. "Yes....well Shizu chan shouldn't you be leaving...." He kicked something at Izaya and just turned to walk out not saying another word. He was getting to close to that brat it would only be a matter of time before Kida got dragged back into the fighting between the two. Could Izaya handle it, he seemed to care about humans but then at the same time he was not like that at all.

"Hm....it's only a matter of time before they catch up to you. It will be fun fighting you again Izaya..." With that he was gone as if he had never been there, just the flame from the smoke he had in his mouth would be seen as it fell to the ground. He was not waiting for what Izaya wanted, he had only helped because he was here. And even then he had been paid for it, it was not something he did for free.

Kida's Dream

He was curled up in Izaya's arms just as he had been before, but something was wrong. He was in pain, his arms were cut up and there was blood. But it wasn't his blood or at least it didn't seem to be his blood. He looked to Izaya the kid was dead in his arms, or at least he was wounded. Kida jumped and fell off the bed hitting his head against the wall. There was blood spreading over the walls and he woke up screaming.

End of dream

"Kida!" Izaya grabbed the boy to stop him from falling off the bed, and looked at him it was like the kid had a nightmare. Bad thing right before they were going back it seemed. But he wouldn't push anything it was not right for him to do so from this point on. "It was just a nightmare...Izaya....don't...." He stopped and didn't talk much more then that. He didn't want to tell him what he had seen it was not a good thing for him to be talking about that kind of thing. "U'm i'll make us some breakfast..." He stumbled to get out of bed only to be pulled back by Izaya. "Don't push yourself we can eat later. "They would get something before going home.

"But..." He just snuggled up to Izaya, it had been awhile since they had been this close to each other. And yet he had a feeling once they got back all of it would end. The boy just yawned it was warm in the bed and he didn't want to move. Going back there meant he had to go back to school. "Do we have to back?" The boy sighed rubbing his eyes some but he didn't know what was going to happen to him from here. "The job here is done, and your school leave is over soon." Not that it made much sense to him why Kida wanted to cling to him.

The boy was loving someone he shouldn't or at least maybe he never would have if they hadn't run into each other. That night when he was supposed to be sleeping and Izaya had just been watching him. Izaya just shook his head and looked around wondering what he was going to do, should he let him go. He really didn't wish to watch him leave or just let him go back to the world that he lived in. "I'm sorry...Just a little nervous." Kida had been hurt before because of something and he didn't like the thought of going back there. Not where something could hurt him again or worse take Izaya Orihara away from him.

'I guess I just have to let it happen...' Kida sighed and slipped out of the bed dragging Izaya with him, they had to leave quickly. That and he didn't want to miss eating before they left trying to ignore the thoughts in his mind. What was he supposed to do just let things fall apart after they had just fixed them. "What do you want to eat?" He looked back to Izaya who was sitting at the table his face in a book. What was he reading Kida couldn't see the cover from here. "It doesn't matter make what you want." The male seemed distracted like he was thinking about something. And yet there was nothing Kida could do to figure it out without probably getting him mad.

"Okay." Kida just started to cook not sure what to talk about he was just confused. This wasn't how love was supposed to work he felt like he was the only one doing anything. Izaya sighed and slipped up from the table to wrap his arms around the blonde. Just to make him relax some Kida looked way too tense, there was nothing that could be said. But he would not move on and leave him alone. "You know I love you don't go thinking like that..." Maybe Izaya did know what was going through his mind but at the same time he was barely sure of it.

Kida just sighed yea again he felt as if he was stuck behind, going to be left while Izaya did something. That might end up getting them both into trouble he was only slightly concerned and usually let it go but still. "I know just..." He shut up and knew he might as well stop talking looking at the food in front of him. He had to wonder why he put up with this and let things happen. He was really going to get in over his head even if he didn't wish to admit it.

Kida Masaomi the kid who was always laughing felt as if he was missing something. They would be going home soon and he really didn't wish to think of what could happen then. "I won't worry about it anymore Izaya." He smiled and went back to putting the food on plates, true he said he wouldn't but it was hard to ignore it. He had tried for the longest time since they had shown up here it was really like Izaya was hiding something.

Looking back to Izaya he was just smirking like he used to, almost as if things were slightly going back to normal. Not that it mattered he was connected to the black haired informant not like it would changed. Either way he looked at it they were stuck together and he loved it, the pain and pleasure. Everything that he got from the relationship even if sometimes he wanted to just make it all stop.

The boy just placed the plate next to Izaya laughing and talking like always. Not as if the life could change in a moment he knew worrying wouldn't help him at all. "Well um I'm going to finish packing okay?" Kida stood up stumbling a bit not knowing what Izaya had on his mind. Izaya didn't speak he just stood up and gave a slight nod before walking to the door with his phone in hand. It did seem even here he was not giving up work Kida would just have to wait till he got back. Or at least was done with his work.

"Well back to packing!" He started to put everything away including Izaya's stuff while he was gone. They would be back home in a few hours but he wanted to make sure everything was packed. So that way they could just leave and not be late though if they were he could spend more time with Izaya. The only thing out of it all that didn't bug him. Kida knew once they did go back home it would just be like before. Hiding from everyone Izaya sneaking into the house at the middle of the night like he always did.

But at least he would still be able to see him maybe there was nothing left to worry about anymore. He wouldn't get hurt again or have to see Izaya Orihara get hurt. That was the last thing he wanted just looking at the picture they took the first time they were together. That girl had been in some of them but he had put the ones with her in a photo album. Separate ones for each other since he would hide the ones with Izaya not wanting anyone to actually see them.

Well okay that wasn't it he just wanted to keep them to himself since he was the only one who loved Izaya. Well minus his little sisters Kida liked spending some time with them. Slipping closer to the door to see if he could hear Izaya but he was gone. Just looking outside of the room he could tell he was gone, probably up on the roof somewhere or something. It made him wonder him Shizuo could get here as well and he hadn't murdered Izaya yet. He wanted to try though just by the look in his eyes but he wouldn't do it.

Not while Kida was here because he would get involved even if he didn't wish to. Fighting was just another fact of life they had to fight to live. Leaning back to fall down to the floor by the door he put his head in his hands. For the first time the water just fell tears dripping onto the ground. Each pained cry seemed to get louder he didn't want to lose everything. Not everything he had worked so hard to fix and make sure it went right. But maybe this was just a part of growing up. Kida did not wish to grow up without Izaya though he couldn't handle losing someone else like he almost lost her.

But she had moved on from him hadn't she because he now had someone else. How long would that last though he hated to find himself questioning things like this. Why would it help even if he did he just stood up wiping his eyes. "Have to let him go if that's what he wants." Of course it was the way Kida would work with it try to make himself feel better. Just by telling himself it was the best thing for Izaya.

Curling up on the bed between the packed suitcases just pulling the blanket over him. He was going to have to wait for Izaya now and felt like he might as well take a nap. He didn't get to sleep long it seemed because he felt arms picking him up, those strong arms he knew all to well. "Izaya?" They were leaving it seemed and he just smiled curling up in his arms again not wanting to wake up. The dream he was having it was just a really good one to him.

"Just rest we will go home." Izaya spoke to Kida before setting him down and just climbing in next to him. He had already put the suitcases in the car so there was no rush to that. Now just to get them out of here before anyone else tried to find them. Kida was still curled up against him sleeping listening to the sounds around him even as he slept.

To them both this was going to be a long drive home that neither of them wanted to actually think about. Not that it was going to help even if they didn't, since of course they would have to be different .Once they got apart from each other and were back in that world they belonged to.

Author notes: well finally the end of this one tried to write it again and again. Was not in the best of moods so forgive me for how bad it may seem. And also for how long it took for me to update it...just so reminded why I should never do certain things. Or even trust certain people awesomeness right. Anyway here ya go.